“There are very few monsters who warrant the fear we have of them.” ~Andre Gide

Things I never needed to see : Yeti Crabs, Squids with elbows, and coconut crabs (yes, they are THAT BIG!). I've never been a big fan of swimming in the ocean (those things mentioned, other "monsters of the deep", decaying carcasses, decaying human remains, fish poop, and other disgusting things...), but now I'm getting downright terrified of the ocean. I'll keep sticking my feet in the waves, but I'm _NEVER_ going in the ocean farther than that ever again.

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Sawyer forwarded me _another_ email about our "family trip". I do not understand why she can't email me. The last time Sawyer replied he copied me on it, so I don't know why she can't click "reply all". It's really starting to make me angry and upset. I have done NOTHING to her to make her treat me like this, and I'm getting tired of it. I hate to say this, but if it doesn't change soon it may come down to Sawyer talking to her nicely or me blowing up on her while we're on this trip. I wish I understood why she's like this. I cannot think of a single thing that I have done that would cause her to act like this. In fact, thinking back, she's always acted like this towards me. 

I talked to Sawyer about it, and he said that he doesn't think she's doing it intentionally. I know that I could be over reacting, but I have been getting the "I hate you" vibe for awhile now. I guess I'll see how the trip goes before making anymore judgements. I am really not looking forward to the trip though - I'm always uncomfortable around Sawyer's sister - I feel like she's constantly judging us, and comparing her and her husband to us. In a "they have this, but we have that" sort of way. I can't put it into words too well, but it's a feeling I've been getting for awhile now. Like they garden, but we don't so they're better than us. Not that I feel that way - that's Sister-in-law and her husband talking - but that's how I'm made to feel. Like we're not "green" or "hippie" enough because we don't garden or make our own wine or something - when really it's that we're too tired after working jobs we hate, and that we have nothing to prove.

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I go to my appointment with the dermatologist on Wednesday. I only have one spot that looks / feels like all the spots I had around Christmas. I'm nervous about the appointment because, besides the Psoriasis, I have some "freckles" that I want to have checked out. There is only one that I'm concerned about - it has a sort of halo around it that I noticed when my Psoriasis moved there. I don't know if the halo was because of the Psoriasis, or what, but I want to have it checked. I try to use sunscreen when I'm in the sun, but sometimes I forget, so I want to rule out skin cancer. I'm hoping they're nothing, but I'd rather be sure.

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 I absolutely _HAVE_ to make an appointment to have my passport picture taken. I found a place that has good reviews, and will double check my paperwork before it's submitted. Sawyer said the paperwork isn't hard, but since I need to make sure there are no delays I want someone to double check it before I submit. I have found a few things to do in Toronto while we're there, and my Best Friend C gave me a list of places they went / things they did while in Niagara. Sawyer would like to do some hikes while we're on vacation, so he's looking for those.

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Mail Call!

  

 Letters sent to : - //

Letters in progress : MN //
Letters remaining : - //
Letter received from : - //
First letters sent to : - //


Postcrossing:

Sent: Taiwan, Belarus //

Received : Japan, Barcelona //
Delivered : Belarus, United Kingdom, Netherlands, Germany //

Need to mail: Valentine's Day Cards