"What's so amazing that keeps us star-gazing and what do we think we might see?" ~Kermit the Frog

Dr. ENT showed me (and explained to me) my Sinus CT Scan. The results? I have a Deviated Septum, but that's all. He said there is surgery option, but since my symptoms aren't really bad he wouldn't recommend it. He gave me a sample of Nasonex to try and if that doesn't help with my stuffiness then he said we'll talk about surgery.

I'm going to call the Sleep Center today to schedule a Sleep Study. I'm nervous about it, but it's just another step on the road to figuring out why I'm so tired all the time. I'll do anything to figure that out. It's effecting so much of my life, and it's making me insane.

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I'm thinking of radio-silence until the election is over this year. I don't want to hear Republican bullshit anymore. I'm tired of "Women should be in the kitchen - barefoot and pregnant", and the other sexist, racist, homophobic shit they spew. Obama is not perfect; there is _NO_ perfect candidate. I'm going to hear enough of how Republicans are great and Democrats suck, and I can barely handle it there. I cannot tolerate ignorant, idiotic Republicans. I know I won't be reading a lot of blogs, and I might just go completely "net-free" until December - if not completely, at least partially.

I'm tired of rich old white men telling me what I should or should not be doing with my life, and my body. The only way to get them to change their views is to step up and make your voice heard. It's not an option anymore (unless you agree with them).

Did you read that? Say it out loud - VOTING IS NOT OPTIONAL ANYMORE! If you want change you have to make that change happen, and you have to voice your opinion. If you're fine being told what to do by people who are richer and more powerful than you then fine - but don't act like you have no say. (Also - I _KNOW_ that your vote doesn't win or lose the election, but you still have the right to vote, and you should use it!)

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My best friend, IHB, just told me that her father-in-law committed suicide on Easter morning. I'm a always heartbroken when I hear of someone taking their life. I don't even need to hear the reason - as my best friend, GB, says "It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem". I will say that I can understand if the person is at the end of their life, or is deathly ill - I can understand wanting your life to end the way you want it to. I feel awful for a message I sent to Sawyer earlier today that asked if you can put people down the same way you put dogs and cats down. (I was asking for personal reasons - and at that point I didn't know about IHB's FIL. I feel like a tool.)

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Another one of my best friends, OC, (what can I say - I'm lucky) is having a rough vacation. I feel bad for her, and wish I could make it better. I am excited for her to come home because I haven't seen her in ages, and I want to hear all about her trip. Things are rough all around lately - it seems. It all certainly puts my problems into perspective. I didn't lose a member of my family to suicide, and I'm not having a rough vacation internationally. I am, of course, sending happy, good, positive thoughts their ways. 

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I am _SO_PISSED_ right now. It's work related, so I won't go into it here, but I really want to. Oh how I want to!